Proud Wife

This weekend Kyle and I went to Portland, OR for the last electric car race. After this quarter everyone in Kyle's class is moving on. He's still thinking about taking this class again but this group won't be together any more.

They have worked so hard on this car and this weekend was a lot of fun. They got to show off the new fiberglass body and everything. They were quite the hit!

Yesterday Kyle saw this when he was leaving his last class.

I'll post more pics when I'm not on my phone. I'm so proud of them and my Hubby especially!

Cliffhanger

{Via}

I've decided recently that "cliffhanger" pretty much describes my life, especially right now. One cliffhanger after another.

We don't know what's going to happen, frequently.

And I don't like it.

First, it's what's going to happen regarding our infertility (and obviously that's ongoing). Then it's what's going to happen with our jobs (I need a new one that pays better and gives me insurance/benefits, Kyle just needs one that's going to pay him regularly)? After that it's what's going to happen with our living situation?

Ugh! I hate cliffhangers! I don't watch suspenseful movies very often because I don't like how they make me feel, all anxious and nervous. Give me a RomCom any day over something that's going to make my blood pressure rise!

I know I haven't shared a lot about what we're going through but suffise it to say, we're moving...in less than a month.  Anxious is an understatement to how I'm feeling.  I want to throw up, and had to hold it back several times this morning.  I've got next to no appetite even though I'm forcing myself to eat when my tummy is rumbling at me.  I have to figure out what to put in storage and what I can live with in one room, because we're more than likely moving in with my inlaws for awhile.  How do you condense a lifetime of crap into one room?!  No freaking clue!

This is the sacrifice we're making while Kyle is in school for the next few years.  And a sacrifice it is! I don't know how to deal with this.  I despise moving, everything about it!  I moved so often growing up that I told Kyle when we got married that I refuse to move constantly.  We've been lucky in that we've been in our house for 6 years but UGH!!!  I'm freaking out!

We're 32 freaking years old and moving back in with our (Kyle's) parents! I'm having a very difficult time with this.  Right now we have a great relationship with them. I don't want us living with them to ruin that.

The two things that are giving me the most anxiety are:

1. Milo. He's 13 years olds and an indoor cat that goes outside when we're home, if he wants.  He's also a royal pain in the ass!  He pees on anything that's left on the floor & I've never been able to get him to stop. I put up with it because I've had him since he was a kitten and I love him despite this annoyance, but I don't think my inlaws are going to be so accommodating if he's peeing on their things.

2. I have Celiac disease. I'm afraid of cross-contamination. It's easy enough to deal with when we just visit but how will it work living there? I just don't know.  It makes me very nervous.  As of this moment it's not 100% that we'll be moving in with them but I'd say a good 98% it's going to happen.

I just want to cry.

I almost did on my way to work this morning.  Would not have been good to show up with puffy eyes. The only thing I've told this client is that we're moving. I don't want to share anything else with them.

Aside from our infertility this is probably one of the most difficult things we've had to go through / deal with.  I'm trying with all my might to lean on Jesus but I'm just horrible at changes and letting go.  It's hard!  I've been reading Jesus Calling daily which definitely speaks to me regularly.  (I can't remember now who recommended it but I thank you, whoever you are!  It's been a blessing in my life for sure!)

Have I mentioned that I hate cliffhangers?  Cuz I do!  Seriously wishing my life wasn't one big fat cliffhanger right now!

Mother's Day For Us Infertile's

{Via}

I was at the chiropractor the other day and she told me that because she doesn't have kids {which I don't know if is by choice or infertility} she has renamed tomorrow "Caregiver's Day" because we're all caregivers in one way or another.  She said that she's got 600 people come to her for caregiving services.  I like the idea. ;0)

I read an article the other day that I wanted to share.  It's titled Surviving Mother's Day with Infertility.  It really gives some great self-preservation tips.  So if you're in this Infertility Camp on this most dreaded day of the year, take a read and I hope and pray that we can all survive tomorrow!

Edited to add:
Here is a poem that I shared last year that I think is really awesome.
And the video, "I Would Die For That". Says everything right there.  I would do anything and everything to have a baby of my very own!

Stronger

This video was done on one of the floors at Seattle Children's Hospital.  So awesome!

Review: "Fresh Produce"

The heart of the Fresh Produce is rooted in the positive impact of color. We love color and want our customers to light up the room in our clothes. From casual tops and feminine dresses to decorative scarves and stylish pants, Fresh Produce is dedicated to creating feel-good clothes women want to wear every day.  The coastal-inspired colors and broad assortment of easy-to-wear pieces are flattering and comfortable on all shapes and sizes and are available in Extra Fresh plus sizes as well as children’s styles. The comfortable fabrics, fit and style reflect carefree ease.

Fresh Produce is co-founded and still run by a mom entrepreneur, Mary Ellen Veron, and is primarily made in the USA.  You’ll find the clothing sold in Fresh Produce stores and more than 500 specialty retailers throughout the US and Caribbean.

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I chose and have been wearing around The Active Long-sleeve Jacket in the color Oyster for the past couple of weeks and I love it!  I ordered it in Medium and it fits similarly to other jackets that I already own.  For some people the sleeves may be a bit long, but I think I have short arms and I actually like it when the cuff doesn't sit right at my wrist.  There's some decorative stitching across the front, chest area which I find flatters the jacket, and therefore me.

The material is a soft cotton with a tiny bit of stretch to it, which is exactly what I love.  Comfortable, cute and something that I can just run around in every day.  The color is gray with a hint of blue and it goes well with the colors I wear on a regular basis.

One of the first days I wore this, I was carrying coffee in a travel cup and my purse slipped off my shoulder which made my coffee slosh.  It sloshed all over my arm/sleeve.  I went inside and was able to wipe it pretty clean with a damp cloth and you'd never know that I spilled.  It didn't leave any weird marks from rubbing.  It came out of the wash great, too.

If you get a chance to try any Fresh Produce products, do it!  They seem like a great company with well made clothes!

Go here if you're looking for casual clothes.
If you're looking for something a little unique go here.
If you've got a vacation coming up, check out the casual vacation clothing here.

They're currently having a Mother's Day special: Buy One Get One 50% Off All Dresses! Enter coupon code LOVEMOM.  Check them out!

Fresh Produce now ships to over 200 countries, so women outside the US can enjoy the colorful styles, too.

I was given the jacket as compensation for my review. All thoughts and opinions are my own.

Sick To My Stomach

All of my pictures are gone!

What the hell?  I want to cry.  Seriously!

PLEASE, ANYONE, is there anything I can do to get them back without going and TRYING to replace four years of pictures in here?

I don't know exactly what happened.

What I DO know is that I kept on getting a thing when I logged onto my blog telling me that there was something having to do with malware that needed to be removed so I finally figured out what it was and I went and deleted that particular blog from my sidebar.

Then I went and googled how to detect and get rid of malware and I've done a couple of different programs to make that crap go away.  Apparently malware includes my pictures?  Or something?

I need some serious help!  PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE!  If you know ANYTHING about this stuff will you please contact me?!  I want to throw up!

REVELATION - I think I'm gonna die...

The other day I was going through my phone and for some reason, when I got this phone, some way, some how when I set it up, every. single. picture. from my blog was on my phone and I deleted those albums.  So this really has nothing to do with the malware crap, huh? UGH!!!!!!  I am going to cry, I'm going to cry, I'm going to cry.  WHAT THE HELL DID I DO?!?!  Is there nothing I can do about THAT?!

My Infertility Prayer

{I unfortunately do not know the original source.}